The following quotation, in which he leaves the bazaar empty-handed, emphasizes the fact that the narrator had egregiously deluded himself about his perceived romance. "Gazing up into the darkness I saw myself as a creature driven and derided by vanity; and my eyes burned with anguish and anger" (Joyce). The "anger" the narrator experiences is understandable and is in reaction to this dearth of money and inability to produce a talisman that is a token of his affection for Mangan's sister. What is far more meaningful, however, is the "anguish" he feels, which is demonstrative of his despair in knowing that he cannot afford presents for Mangan's sister and will not consummate his feelings for her ever -- and is instead headed for a life of poverty, dinginess and mediocrity. The existence of the narrator's aunt and uncle confirm the fact that more than likely, the narrator will share their fate of living in poor conditions, with little pleasure beyond that of working for enough money to eat their next meal. A brief look at some of the facets of life that the narrator and his family go through hints at a future in which these undesirable conditions will persist. An excellent example of these circumscribing conditions is found in the narrator's trip to the market with his aunt, in which they "walked through the flaring streets, jostled by drunken men and bargaining women, amid the curses of the labourers, the shrill litanies of shopboys who stood on guard by the...
These conditions -- the cursing, the lewd inebriation of those who pass by -- all of which the narrator and his aunt endure to obtain necessities at the market, are the narrator's reality. His affection for Mangan's sister remains a fantasy, something that eludes him and which he cannot actualize. The scene of the trip to the market is merely one other way in which the author implies that the narrator is fated for an existence in these same, semi-impoverished conditions -- and that to aspire to anything more will only disappoint him.Our semester plans gives you unlimited, unrestricted access to our entire library of resources —writing tools, guides, example essays, tutorials, class notes, and more.
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